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You give me butterflies. But I don't know how to feel about the wings fluttering in my stomach and chest.
You've been here for me, for so long. You're the closest thing to family I have here, and yet I find myself, confused and scared that you'll be so uncomfortable that I'm left alone.
Maybe I'm getting such convoluted emotions because I'm simply confused- I haven't had much experience with love here, after all, as you know so well about me.
I'd hate to ruin our friendship because of my juvenile confusion, and even moreso terrified at the prospect of hurting you by acting this way.
I'm caught between a rock and a hard place- do I try to pursue romantic feelings for you, and potentially cause discomfort? Or do I remain platonic, and stew in my uncertainty?
Either way, I do know that I want to hold your hands and see you smile. I want to put my arms around you and feel comfort in knowing that finally I have a piece of what it's like to be home. I want to wake up every day knowing I can hear your laughter again, that same laugh that brings me joy and zoomies.
I don't quite know what to do, or how I feel, but know this: I love you, and I'll always be here for you, regardless of what happens in the future.
Ps.
My heart is pounding even thinking of sending this