Runway-Walk, The Unforgiving.

i miss you, and you know who else i miss.

I'm not supposed to be attached to this game but i am and I'm suffering because of the fact i got so attached to you, how can i express this to something that isn't real? i'd have no idea, so ill just dump things here. random notes n shit, but im i can finally find my way back and just get rid of this habit of waking up everyday and hopping on this game only to see i couldn't play it. i just wanna dump this here everytime i think of you to get it off my chest and out of my head

i want to make something that's better than you, and I'll be sure to create it. i want you to get out of my head just like the man i associate you with, maybe that's why you can't get out of my head. anyway, i wish some sort of respite from this endless cycle i call life of thinking of you. i hate this stupid thing, you, your digital existence and whom you associate, or i just hate the fact that i love whom i associate you with. either way, i wish i never made you.

hopefully i don't think of you again.

6/2/24 -

Well that's a fucking lie, i got pulled back on here - and i'd say i don't regret it but i probably do , i don't understand this at all - however i wanna just let this go for a while so i can focus on my school and my part-time job but this game just keeps crossing my mind lol, i think ill be going back into the habit of logging on everyday and then forgetting about it for a month.

its crazy i finally thought to create something after mourning a loss just yesterday, but here you are a lion not even close in similarity to the thing i wish so badly to just not exist, and i see you as a dedication of its memory. i make entirely no sense sometimes, obviously.

6/3/24 -

Fuck you. Iiiiiii just wish him a healthy recovery from whatever he's going through, otherwise i wish this other feeling would perish. so much for being mentally unwell

6/4/24