Hey, I hadn't done one of these since a long while. It has most definitely been some time. How have you been?

These years sure been on and off,alot sure has happened, hasn't it?

You know, you're still here, you probably didn't realize it, but you've worked so hard and came so far, now here you are, you're here, you're still you.

I know life has been super weird, if not sucky and hard. But you've made it, I know it doesn't feel like much and life throws a lot of weird curveballs that make you just go 'bleh'.

You're probably going through some difficult life moments right now. But its okay, reach out, there are many nice people who would love to support, I don't think you should suffer it silently, that is never okay. You are not a 'weak crybaby' for crying, and expressing yourself. We're all human, we all deserve to right of expression.

I know you probably feel useless, stupid, and just no good...but you aren't. Whoever tells you that, "friends", relatives or family, they are not your friend, and not a good family/relative, and I pray one day you can get out of there, its toxic, so remove the toxic. Blood does not mean you stay together if they mistreat you. Find people who treat you right, there are people who have gone through what you have, find those people. Even if people hadn't, if they're nice enough, they will sympathize with you. You're not weak, so don't beat yourself over it.

I know your current situation may not be ideal, but you know, you're still here, you must have done something very right to be here. Hold your head up and keep fighting, please do not give up, ever.

Stay strong, hold a goal, if your goal is to gather enough funds to move out of a toxic household or a toxic relationship, do so, and friends definitely help, see if anyone is wiling to temp house you, do whatever reasonable and sensible it takes.

Be brave, keep a clear mind and good, solid ambitions and strive for it, to better your situation you come so far, don't let it drag you down now.

You're still here,

I am proud of you.

I believe in you.

You are better than what they say.

Do not change for *them*, change for yourself.

Don't give up.

You have accomplished so much more than you have realized.

You're still here.