Lexa pushed out of his hug and worked out of his arms and took a few steps back. "I am done Leon! I can't deal with this pressure and any of this anymore! I am a monster. I make everyone around me die or hate when when I try and save them. I can't do anything right! I have tried to grow up and have no feelings but it's eating me alive and I can't!" Lexa sobbed keeping her distance from him.

Lexa looked at him and then looked away. "I shouldn't even be commander with all the vows I have broken, as Marcus brought to my attention how many I have broken and that I am still young." She said looking back to him. "Not only do I have to run a clan who is against me at the moment I have to raise 2 kids with a man who isn't even apart of my clan and the Commander of the East Clan." She began to let the tears fall again.

Lexa let him take her in an embrace and she grabbed a handful of his shirt and kept him close and she listened to him. She knew that he was right and to focus on their Clans was what they had to do. She took a couple deep breaths and just kept him close knowing she wouldn't see him for a little while when she left. She couldn't find the words to speak so she said nothing and wiped her tears away and stopped her sniffles and held him close.

Lexa closed her eyes and thought about the future, but only for a brief moment knowing that she was just going to have to let it come to her rather then run at it. When he pulled away she opened her eyes and gave him a gentle kiss on the cheek before disappearing out the window, no words needed to be shared. They knew what had to been done...

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The last few months had been something that she desperately needed. She had come to her clan and spoke to them with her head and her heart explaining her actions and coming forward to her mistakes. The last month's had been healing and everyone was doing quite well as the began to 're mend the bond that had been torn. Lexa now a little over 7 months pregnant stood in a smaller dark room in the East Clan capitol building, yes she wasn't suppose to be there but she had let a few know and it was what she called an emergency, you could say. She had grown, the active twins I side her and running a clan had been more than exhausting but her clan had been there for her. She looked around the small dully light room and waited next to the door and listened carefully. She only had a short time here and she had goals, and if the heavily pregnant women didn't get what she wanted, you don't want to know what would happen.

Lexa waited for a little while in the small room. At one point she herd footsteps but it was not Leon but soon after she was almost positive it was. She moved her hand to the door and when he walked by she opened it and reached out to him and pulled him into the room where she quickly closed the door and passed him back into the door with a small laugh.

Lexa almost laughed when he made the starteled noise as she pulled him into the small, dark room. "I am here to murder tumour whole clan." She said sarcastically with a roll of her eyes. She thought about hitting him upside the head. "Here to see you obviously. You know it really hard trying to sneak on here when you just over 7 months pregnant." she said getting slightly impatient but she forced herself to slow down a bit.

Lexa took her hand and gave him a small tap on the head to focus, "Stop thinking about the kids, you've had enough time to do that. Because if you do it's gonna get weird real fast because you're right I need you.....for something." she purred and brushed her lips against his and took a handful of his shirt pulling him closer.