Svenny (#20813)
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Adysin kept her arms around Adamaris's neck as Ryder spoke to her, encouraging her to tell her what happened. She told herself to never once look at Ryder as she told her story, too afraid to see the pity that would be in her eyes. When the women came in and left the blankets and pillows without saying anything, Adysin released her wolf and grabbed a pillow, holding it close to her. Taking a deep breath she began, "When I was 13, my life was perfect. I had a mother and a father who loved me with all their hearts, I even had two twin brothers who pestered me like siblings do. I loved them, I still do, with all my heart. We lived in a country house in rural Germany, no one around us for miles. They pampered me and treated me and my siblings like royalty, because we were a family of masters, there was nothing we couldn't share. We were really close. Until a few weeks after my 13th birthday. People came to our house and burned down the house, but only after killing my brothers and my parents. I only managed to survive because I have this stupid force field power. I wish I would've been strong enough back then to save them..." she paused for a moment, rocking her body back and fourth. "When that happened, I fled the country. I fled with Adamaris to America where I thought I would be safe. My family is quite wealthy, so I have and had enough money to support myself, so I was able to get across the Atlantic. When I arrived, I had no idea where to go. So I started traveling. It was hard traveling with Adamaris because she's quite noticeable, so we never ventured into anything larger than a village. It wasn't until I was 14 did I find a decent place to settle down, at least I thought. The people were really nice to me, offered me a job at the local tavern and gave me a room above the tavern to live on. I lived there for a few weeks. I thought my life was finally turning up again, but it was only going to get so much worse. The first time he came to me was sometime in March, I would stay till May. He took advantage of me, everything he did-" Adysin paused again, swallowing hard and trying not to cry at the memory of that man, "Everything he did was not wanted by me. I thought I deserved it though because I was just some tavern girl who worked and served him, who was I to stand up to a grown man? And I didn't. Not until two months of every night beatings. One night I woke up in the middle of the night, his naked body splayed across mine and I knew I had to get out. He was pretty passed out because he had been drunk, so I didn't worry about him waking up. I fled, I ran for miles upon miles until I found the next town. Here I would stay for a few weeks as well, this time I hid in the shadows, until someone noticed me and brought me to the local bar. There I found another job waiting for me as a waitress and occasionally a bartender. I was terrified everyday I was there, watching out for someone to speak to me or lay a hand on me the way that man did. It wasn't until I had been working their a couple of weeks, when I had relaxed a bit, did someone named Michael talk to me. He was sweet to me at first, telling me I was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen, everything a girl wants to hear. So the first time I gave myself to him, it wasn't bad. It was wonderful actually, I wasn't afraid of what he would do to me. But every time after that... it was awful. So there I was, a month from turning 15, already been raped countless times by two different men. What was I supposed to think? I thought that I was worthless, and that I deserved what they were doing to me. That something as disgusting as me was meant to serve and do what other people wanted me to do. So I ran again, to a town not too far from this one. I was always afraid at that point. Always thinking that someone was lurking in the shadows, waiting for the right moment to strike. And, like the stupid idiot I am, it happened again. Trevor, was his name. But this time it was different. He was really sweet, sweeter than Michael ever was. He took me on dates and bought me nice things, let me stay with him in his house. At night we would go to bars and get drunk, and sometimes I would end up with random people in my bed the next day. Sometimes they were boys and sometimes they were girls. After a while, I found Trevor in my bed. He told me he loved me... and I fucking believed him. What else was I supposed to think?" A tear ran down Adysin's face and she lifted her hand to wipe away the tear, her heart breaking slightly each time she thought about what those men did to her, "Trevor was different. He was sweet at first, I guess you can call it making love, because I believed I loved him. Then he became abusive, mentally abusive. He told me that it was my fault that I wasn't good enough for him in bed and that was he reason he would still lay with other women. He told me that I wasn't worth his time and that he felt bad for me, that was why he was paying me so much attention. One night I tried to run away, but he caught me... it was the worst night in my entire life. Michael and that other man was horrible, but nothing compared to this night. When I woke up the next morning, I couldn't move a finger without being in so much pain... I stayed in the house for many weeks after that, healing slowly as I allowed Trevor to take me whenever he wanted. I had given up at that point, I knew I was going to die anyway. I no longer remembered the girl who was happy and loved her parents and siblings. I was a girl who hated herself and who wanted to die, who believed she was shit and that she was there for men to rape her over and over again. A few weeks after that awful night, I found out I was..." Adysin stopped talking, getting to her feet and walking towards the window that was on the wall. She placed her hand against the cool glass, allowing it to chill her burning hands. Pressing her forehead against the window, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath. "I found out I was pregnant. Trevor's, obviously. I thought maybe if Trevor found out I was pregnant, he would be happy and that he would change. But when I told him, he laughed in my face and kicked me out of his house. I didn't have anywhere to go. So I went to the town over form that one and tried to make a life for myself, I told myself I would be happy when this baby was to be born. But I knew I wasn't going to be. I was afraid that it was going to be a boy and have the same face of Trevor. I didn't want to look at my baby and see that... that monster. So, I lived in a shed not much different from this one, for almost seven months, slowly dying from starvation because I had no one there to take care of me. Adamaris was still too young at that point to really do anything, she couldn't protect me. She tried to hunt for me, but I couldn't eat uncooked meat. So when the day the baby was born came, I gave birth to the baby in the shed by myself. It was a girl. I was so happy that it wasn't a boy and thought about not giving her up for many days, holding her in my arms and giving her everything I could. I named her Annabel. She too held the tattoo of the sword with a rose vine swirling around it. It was after she was a month old did someone find me... another Master, a boy with a lion as a Guardian. His name was Thomas, my best friend. He told me about the boarding school that was just across the other side of the forest, told me that I could turn my life around. So I wrote a note saying that her name was Annabel and brought her to the orphanage in town. It broke my heart leaving her there, but I knew I wasn't able to take care of her. Thomas brought me to the boarding school and I was able to turn my life around. Somewhat. There's hardly a day that goes by I don't think about her, wonder how she's doing. Now I don't trust anyone, I am the one who always initiates. Every now and then I get a little bit scared. I think that the man I just saw in the corner was Trevor, or Michael, or even that first man. That they came back for more. One never recovers fully from those things, especially if those things left you scarred in every way possible. Mentally, physically and emotionally." Adysin stopped, having finished her story. Still, she leaned her head against the window, not daring to turn around and look at her. She knew that she would try and come over to her to comfort her, but those never really worked. They reminded her of the times where the men did that to her, placed a hand on her in a comforting way, just long enough to make her think she was safe before they took advantage of her. Finally she turned around to look at Ryder, her eyes bloodshot from silent tears she had cried.
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